Whining inside

This week is getting shorter than I expected. Deadline for submission of grades for graduating students this Summer is two days away. 48 hours to be exact. I'm sure, I'm not going to make it, so I'm not pushing myself to the limit. I'm taking it one step at a time, but I'm making sure that my name is getting on the approved list of graduating students!

I can feel the pressure through my stiff neck and shoulders. My eyes get teary most of the time due to working in front of a computer screen for the whole day. I stopped drinking coffee because it makes me less productive.

Last night, I slept for 10 hours. I thought I deserved it since I felt a bad headache brought about by several days of less than four hours of sleep.

I can hear myself whining inside. I want this suffering to end. I want to read new books, surf the internet, watch my favorite korean drama series, eat delicious meals at home and sleep more than five hours a day.

But I can't yet. Not until I finish all my writing stuffs. Haaaayyy... Imposing discipline to myself is taking all my energy.

I'm thankful that I can use Mam Glecy's room. At least, I can concentrate on writing and be more productive (plus more savings because I'm not tempted to buy food all the time).

I really love my teachers. Since I was in elementary, I think I loved my teachers more than I appreciated boys. When I look back, I'm glad I had a special space for my teachers in my heart because at least, I was naturally led into an inspiring way to live. I'm glad to have met Teacher Ria, Mam Arlene, Mam Emelie, Mam Nancy, Mam Glecy, Mam Louella, Mam Marot and Mam Gyeong Min. Each of them gave me (some are still giving me) a beam of hope.

I'm excited to reach the finish line. I'm tired of running but I won't let the whining stop me from completing this race.

Aja!