I'm excited to go home. I'm excited to hug my family. I'm excited to see my close friends.
But honestly, I'm more afraid than excited to go back.
1) I'm afraid of the promises I did not fullfill. I'm afraid to face the people to whom I owe much to. And I guess there's nothing I can do to pay them back. The damages have been done, and there's no one to blame but me.
2) I'm afraid to fail my graduation. I have less than four months to clear everything and I only have slim chances of getting to walk on the easy road. Unless I receive miraculous favor from the Professors I will be asking for completion prerogative.
3) I'm afraid to answer questions like: "What did you do in Korea? How much did you earn there? What are your plans after?"
4) I'm afraid to miss Korea and everything I was accustomed with for almost a year.
5) I'm afraid to disappoint people who are expecting "pasalubong".
6) I'm afraid to carry more responsibilities at home.
7) I'm afraid to pay my debts.
8) I'm afraid to start working again and misbalance my priorities.
9) I'm afraid of planning for the future because I'm so confused with what I really wa
nt and what is really good for me and my family.
10) I'm afraid to face and meet up expectations of a 26-year-old me.
If only I can lock up myself in one place in the Philippines where no one can push my sanity to the limits...
How I long to sleep like a baby once more...
But honestly, I'm more afraid than excited to go back.
1) I'm afraid of the promises I did not fullfill. I'm afraid to face the people to whom I owe much to. And I guess there's nothing I can do to pay them back. The damages have been done, and there's no one to blame but me.
2) I'm afraid to fail my graduation. I have less than four months to clear everything and I only have slim chances of getting to walk on the easy road. Unless I receive miraculous favor from the Professors I will be asking for completion prerogative.
3) I'm afraid to answer questions like: "What did you do in Korea? How much did you earn there? What are your plans after?"
4) I'm afraid to miss Korea and everything I was accustomed with for almost a year.
5) I'm afraid to disappoint people who are expecting "pasalubong".
6) I'm afraid to carry more responsibilities at home.
7) I'm afraid to pay my debts.
8) I'm afraid to start working again and misbalance my priorities.
9) I'm afraid of planning for the future because I'm so confused with what I really wa
nt and what is really good for me and my family.10) I'm afraid to face and meet up expectations of a 26-year-old me.
If only I can lock up myself in one place in the Philippines where no one can push my sanity to the limits...
How I long to sleep like a baby once more...
